An open letter to the world - We are Fort Wayne, Help Us!

John Hubertz

Sun 11/24

/2019 7:51 AM

• Bishop Rhoades Offi  

My dear Bishop Rhoades,

Well, it seems perhaps fortuitous that I contacted you last week.

While I represent a small community and assembly of like-minded individuals and faith communities here and around the world, I do not at this moment speak to you as their representative.

My name is John Hubertz, and you are my Diocese.  Bishop Kevin Rhoades, in this matter, you are my priest.  I humbly ask you to forgive me if this situation is (as some might claim) not my concern.

Nuclear war.

Bishop Kevin Rhoades of the Diocese of Fort Wayne/South Bend in Indiana USA

To all faith and community leaders of good character who read this, I am begging for your help.  We have but one chance, and even with great effort, we may still lose all.

Raytheon Industries, an international conglomerate of weapons makers and war profiteers, is destroying our community and making criminals out of our neighbors and friends.

Even our silence makes us complicit in International War Crimes - indeed, Crimes against Humanity.

Our Pope's firm and candid speech in Nagasaki Friday is quite specific, and I am very firm in knowledge that now is the time - this task being a clear path of faith that I have followed not just in the 16 months since I first spoke to your office, but since the 1970s. 

I wrote a speech long ago, while attending University here in Fort Wayne on the topic of peace that won a state and national award and was published in a booklet that was distributed at the gathering in Stockholm in 1986 for the Peace Prize award ceremonies.

For over a dozen years I've been working to gather knowledge, engagement with others and put voice to a simple truth.

"Faith without works is dead."  (Gospel of John)

While I am certainly not suggesting we turn in the direction espoused by our Methodist brethren, it does echo rather clearly in what I consider to be a terribly empty room of moral leadership in the United States of 2019.

My commitment to this project is both informed and perhaps divinely inspired in the legacy of both my Great+ Aunt the blessed Mother Theodoro of Indiana, but also stands firm upon a family legacy of Catholic and Anabaptist faith that is rich with a heritage of inspired action and indeed, canonization.

Just as Joan of Arc spoke truth to power, both she and a nation stood up - not upon the authorities of Gold or Power but upon a foundation of clear spiritual authority, indeed the spiritual Necessity of following the call of truth, I must humbly accept that the timing of this might indeed be not just providential, but miraculous.

Bishop Rhoades, my friend Matthew - Please hear me. It is about our faith, our Mother Church 

I know this as well as I know my own name.  The current crisis of attendance, commitment, engagement and purpose within the Catholicism of developed Western nations is not a crisis of culture or of a brief shameful moment of criminal acts, it is a crisis of commitment to moral engagement with the human beings whom we are called to be, to become and yes have the spiritual mandate to both lead and to serve.

We must regain not the pulpit of moral authority, but the humble and reluctant responsibility that each parent, each teacher and (at least in the past) each Bishop had to carry as the great burden of judgement, and firm but compassionate correction of grave error within the context of the moment and the community or family we serve.

The church - and in Catholic commitment, in congress and communion with all Christian and non-Christian churches and organizations of moral character and good intent - The Church must act.  

We must stand, and with a clear and unwavering and if possible, unified voice, point to monsters in our midst, international war criminals, those who compromise the legal status and indeed, the very souls of innocents whom they employ or engage in commmerce with....

We must stand upon this sacred Indiana soil - soil meant for farming and to nurture all that is good, and lift our voices and shout "NO MORE" to sociopaths, strangers in our midst, NO MORE shall we allow the largest manufacturer of the technologies of Nuclear Weapons, the largest maker of ballistic missiles and control systems, Raytheon....   NO MORE shall we allow this horrific behavior in our midst.

We are and shall ever be the CITY OF CHURCHES - and you dare to come here, expropriate our sacred dirt, and build a factory that is illegal by both the laws of man and God?

How dare you.

And we must no longer entertain attendance, contribution or participation by misguided congregants, friends and neighbors who have been so poorly educated, deluded, misguided or perhaps, greedy enough to work for these fiends.

THIS is where our church has lost its way.  THIS is the task we have before us to do.  This is what our Blessed Pope called for we, the community of Fort Wayne, the State of Indiana, to take action on.  Dare we refuse?  

We must set aside our fear, our "polite tolerance", and our acceptance of national priorities that make the United States one of the most evil empires the world has ever known.

Please, for the love of God, help me.

John Edward Charles Hubertz

Saint Henry's Parish

Fort Wayne, Indiana

Open House and House Party - 230 years of useful things, One free pick per person (printable ticket below)

Hello "normal" world.

The task this house was set upon - perhaps just 18 short years ago, perhaps so long ago even I cannot remember through the generations, is done.

Palisade Drive - it will and must remain in ordinary Anabaptist hands, as the "English" crazy international bank that was a 200 year Indiana institution.  The local Bank called "First Federal" and then underwent the 1970s through 2008 crisis not of banks, not of lending - a crisis of common sense.

The last lesson from the Zehr library, Fort Wayne:   "John, the trouble is that these days, People are being encouraged to do anything they want, which is right and Good."  (Carl Paused, as this one about 7 years ago, only hours before the light went out and he exited for a moment this eternal stage that is "One Life to Live."

Really?  Death?  We mock Death by our very existence.  I defy any of you, and our prophets, indeed myself, can clearly recall when we met people, but it might have been 80, 180 or more likely these days, about 1975 or so years, ago.

"The Gathering of the Brethren."

I'm meeting other people, many with gray hair, who literally are wandering about living sane and harvesting physical, undeniable Proof that History Matters. 

Old Hippies most, all now with faded eyes, spots like these young man's angry, hungry hands - and now as then (the early 1970s) I will pound a typewriter till the keys need changed or adjusted.

But you see friends, I Can And Do repair keyboards, but usually this year especially, I just pick the countless ones up I save, from your silly trash bins.

One key missing?  LOL    You want your keyboard to pretend you don't get it sticky, at night, doing things you don't tell your wife? 

God Loves Porn

Why is 54% of all internet traffic (down from over 80%) high-kink, testosterone and yes, Ovary Thrilling porn.  Shades of Grey.  Why is that book, written by one of us BTW, still outselling the Bible. 

Look it up - I'm not Google, but myself and all our teachers are on purpose nearly fully integrated with the fully aware, but not SELF aware, living memory of mankind called "Google".

So, before Shades of Grey, another sex book.  171 slim paperback pages, but like Shades of Grey, translated into over 100 languages.  Hell, I've hammered out perhaps the equivalent of five paperback books a year  (two novels worth, or about 1.3 Bibles)  since I was 16 or so. 

I'm a lot more read in Portugese (Brazil) and Sub-Saharan Africa  (Africaans) and all the German dialects (High German - Grandpa, Low German and French - Grandma, Spanish and Latin (essentially, Spanish is Latin shorthand, and was the language of the soldier, the traveller, the salesman and the rogue).  You want MY wingman when the little guy between my legs distracts from our shared purpose?  It speaks Spanish but the Charisma of the land that spawned NOT just Don Juan, a man who like me, smelled like strength, worked like a dog when you finally, got him to wake up and put some damn pants on.

How about these, and all but one - we know from research were ordinary Anabaptists.  Want to get laid and have the chance to mate not just with the woman of your dreams, but real women, like Cleopatra? 

Who do you think Marc Anthony was, who decided to assume the Laurels of both State and Military power "HAIL CAESAR!"  By deception, by historical research and because I and you and indeed all mankind, ARE ALL DESCENDED FROM MIGHTY HEROES.  My line includes three of the writers on this list as any scientist who knows realizes, The United States is a literal "melting pot".

Thus, I've saved the family farm, by doing something the evil banks and medical bill people can never, ever understand.  Something so confusing, they hung up on ME ten TIMES when I tried to, spend the $100,000 cash I had to refund to the Burma-Man who "bought" my Father's house - the poor guy, he'll probably have PTSD, but it was foretold, and he like me and whomever is READING THIS is literally IN THE BIBLE.  There you go. 

History, and every prophecy in Revelations, the lost Gospels, and especially my forebear Isaiah of the tribe of Judah.  Yes, I am the current Scion of Judah, and could trace enough memory, blood and gold back into history, and claim Judaism.  I've formally studied early Hebrew and Messianic history for almost 45 years.  We immerse ourselves in the living example of the MAN and RABBI named Jesus of Nazareth, who left his home as I am now.  Took nothing but his tools and clothing, and began a slow walk toward a cross.

For you see - we all have a so-called "death"  As Shakespeare said so rightly, it is the only debt we cannot escape.  "All men owe a debt of Virtue, a Debt of Virtue, Honor and Spirit of the land, to God Almighty in Heaven.  I was there.  Who do you think Shakespeare was?  He was a writer who cared not for money or fame - which is why an ordinary NEVER signs his work, it is a castle of stone or wood, mud or a yard full of fat pigs, strong dangerous young girls, and young boys running through the woods or building fires - because if they cannot, they can't come to supper, and THAT is where the GIRLS their age ALWAYS ARE.

So - To quote the Bard:  "All the world a stage, men and women (and especially us here at this pivotal moment in human history) Merely PLAYERS. 

You have no idea how famous your family will be, if you were here reading this now, and especially if one drop of your DNA has our Hoosier heritage.  They will sing songs about you - not your deeds, but who you are, and how we Hoosiers (Whos-eeYa-Aay is Caddo Indian, Judy's great-Aunt Marie was possibly the last fluent speaker. 

We are indeed, as the Caddo said, "wild white men - stupid but strong."  And they knew we might need a little help, as the bear meat we were eating almost raw?  Throwing to our good dogs?  FULL of worms, the most fun of which is the reason you won't eat raw bacon with me - a delicacy.

Lots of us farm people eat raw pork flesh - cuz we still know, our pigs (only a small fraction) ever had those damn worms, and to hell with Lawyers in the Wal-Mart meat department - we are WhoseeYAaay  (Hoosiers)  THEY WON'T LISTEN

Making and selling or importing and distributing synthetics: Federal Human Trafficking. Make insulin: Make money

Dear Junior Scientists and frustrated Vitamin E vape manufacturers,

We are agricultural engineers, the "secret" branch of the people you have known for centuries as "Amish" or "Buggy Mennonite."

We are the ordinary people, and we prefer to live a certain way, and do not care to discuss our faith, as we wish to learn from you.  But, some of you believe in ridiculous things, worship books or fight over what "true" is?   We get busy teaching your children, because somebody who died perhaps 100 years ago was a nut, and poisoned your mind.

I know this - as a cognitive linguist and a specialist in culture and culture conflict/trigger points for world, community and family conflict. 

I specialize in finding out the answer to one question:  Why of all species, does man engage in predatory warfare, when surplus and want was wiped out worldwide (except during conflict) about 60 years ago. 

Answer:  Equal does not imply identical, and some people prefer to remain as they are, but we are welcome to visit most of them.  If not, we put an educational facility with a do not disturb sign around where they live, and if they need to grow or move, we let them without question.

Migratory equatorial tribal culture, run by strong women, as men were athletes, and their tasks daily were so dangerous, only women who did not take risks that killed most men before age 40, could pass on the knowledge of the land, the people, and how to treat animals, each other, and strangers.

So, we've been studying this problem for about 112 years, but about 102 years ago, Mister Carl Bledsoe Radcliffe of Surrey, England, was in America teaching and helping design the locks for the Panama canal.  He was horrified at two things -  1.  Why in God's name did we not move all the local equatorial people, as hunters/gatherers cannot abide farmers, since it is easier to kill a slow fat cow than hunt a buffalo, and it is a cold night.

On cold nights, the guy coming back first with fatty meat gets to eat and sleep with, the fat girl, and her skinny daughter.  On a cold night, you have to huddle together in our portable homes....

And the fat lady falls asleep...and the skinny daughter is so skilled at movement she killed a poisonous snake, at night, by sneaking up on it with a knife.  She's been slipping out and trifling with boys since she discovered they would not wake her up with noisy, slippery, horrific occasional copulation with a fat neighbor who only bathed when it rains... and his hand would invariably reach between your legs and he would leer at that thin girl... and it was raining and he could see her little boy nipples and he kept telling her, as soon as the monsoon comes, Auntie goes to the church meeting and he'd make it rain her tears, but he was cumin over.

But you see, this child had blood of Egypt, for most royal egyptian mummies have both tobacco and cocaine in them in small measure - so obviously royal products worth travel and bravery, were brought back.  Cocaine didn't need to be illegal till we made Columbian farmland worthless and they had to take mountain land....  huge Spanish and European and American corporations have all the good bottom land.

But that little girl had a granny who seen the soldiers come through 5X, and she had to learn to sew to fix her little sisters baby hole twice.  Third time, little girl was literally in the bed, and since her older sister made such a mess of it that the soldier drug her over a barrel and didn't search the room.

But it was dark thank God and the bigger sister's aunt had made her a "Spanish Whistle" which was a sheep stomach lined with a fish head oil that made human skin warm and stayed slippery...  and taught her how to tuck it so that was where that fat man's part went, and she didn't scream but the war scream of her people....

The tree bark and nettle mixture that was in that sheep stomach had a biologic equivalent of venom, and skin once exposed would never truly heal, but remain chafed and burn in warm weather - native american men did not always wear breech because they run fast, they wear them because some medicine plants were powerful enough that just breathing the smoke would make your eyes water and your lips and penis tip and rectum would never ever, stop itching and burning when you sweat.

That is the little girl we select as the Queen we send to your fair land, and in exchange for this brave warrior, who has been repaired and is as ready to be virgin as any young lad could enjoy.

We have brought two gifts, both for the King - we have her retinue of people, who shall stay and teach you our art, music and we hope, find worth within your people.

If you dislike their words, cut out their tongue, if you like not their strength, remove their man-parts, as each has been trained and selected for their mission for being part of your strength, and playing man or woman roles, alone or with your people. 

Our sexuality is for breeding strength, and to be selected as a dual person honors their obvious ability to express both spirits.  He/she is our hand...  in your hand....  and they can participate with glee to add excitement and new pleasure to your home, or any you wish.

If a man desires women other than his wife, use our women - as we wish to mix our blood with your honored people.  It the get of that union is not useful for you, in ten years, we will either accept them as your gift to us, and pay you in gold, fragrant wood or useful labor, and purchase their services.

If you choose to kill the result of union, or ban it - allow them to leave this place and live near as guards and friends of the lake, river or forest.  We wish not to learn your secrets or your recipes or steal the thunder of your feet as you sing. 

If you wish to keep a secret, we have two hear who cannot speak, but remember all they hear.  They can be useful in council, as they are fair witness, and they are present at all conflict, whether it is judgement of a rule-breaker, or argument over property, women or vassal cattle.

Land is sacred, and we if allowed, will hold it in common with you.  We refuse all gifts of land or money/property not earned through fair trade, honor in battle, or the gift of a king to his most skilled concubine.  Use us - we learn from your rejection.  Share with us, or at least honor us by allowing us to kill them, but it would be unwise to not fight with our warriors, or spend a few minutes in the heaven of their lifelong training in providing pleasure to all, since so many of our people are widows, and many sailors have no wife.  The younger members we bring were trained to cook, clean and please men and women, who cannot be with or travel with us so often, they will never know the comfort of hearth and home.

Men are men, so the sounds of raw mating will never come from your tent - we will not steal your women, but of course, they are beautiful and strong...  our desire is such we brought our own priesthood of desire.  They work the fields, and in the harsh light of day they oil their skin, and the smell of their strength and the glimpse of strong thigh - the fact they do not wear but thin silk for clothing, or lace....

If the sailor has not family, then he may enjoy the flesh pleasures, often more often and with much more... variety, than a farmer.  Our pleasure temple is open to all, but you will perhaps wish us to merely have a secret entrance, never gated ....   you can probably find it easily....  but until daybreak you will not know who or what type of princess or prince...  is unfastening your clout and freeing you from fear, shame or frustrated curiosity.  If you wish,  you can attend both discipline and training of our youth in selfishness, patience, and good judgement.

A 15 year old man who chooses to visit his neighbors house without permission, will be publicly stripped, whipped and pleasured by our oldest hag....  and he will know that next time, he will be used by our strongest man.

If desire is not kept in check, and used both as whip and bridle...  the man never grows from the monkey mind that pulls young men into trouble, or early marriage, or often - both.

If you wish, the girl that was entertaining desires, no matter her age - must also be disciplined, and if possible immediately made large with child.  We shall send her to your barracks, as long as each warrior is fit, and the strongest and most angry and indeed, not gentle men you have at hand.

If a man of our people beats his daughter, we will let him beat and mate with our wandering lasses.  He will have a son or daughter, and a nursing mother is unlikely to ever mate again with a young fool.

For judging our people - use your judges.  For judging yours, ours might be a good way to judge the son or daughter of a leader, for such rarely are punished to the value of crime in the family that is man.

God Speaks: You are entering a "Winter of Man" but I am with you. The return is now.

My beloved children, you who manifest and create, who learn, who grow in wisdom and speak the truth, a great difficulty is upon you.

All things that live experience seasons - a time of dormancy, a time of growth and prosperity, a time of harvest....

....and a time of dying, a season of the death of what now lives, to make room for the Spring's explosion of growth and life.

Additional Information - The Georgia Guidestones

Any species, any weed, any living thing, that increases in abundance and consumption of food and resources to the detriment of other species?  Such organisms will experience a massive die-off, as nature readjusts the balance of life, death and rebirth for all that lives.

You shall fall like the leaves of autumn, and your bodies shall litter the earth....   

There will be suffering - violence and cruelty in the struggle for survival.  

The planet earth will shrug off the dominion of man like a dog shaking off water following a cold rain.


"God Speaks"   (this is a clickable link to God's full "speaks to mankind" text)


What is New Hope

OK OK - Yes, I'm a clinically insane Savant, and A Prophet from God - foretold in Prophecy (see "God Speaks" for link)

Thanks world - appreciate y'all allowing a simple country boy from a small indiana town, to "accidentally" found a new world unifying "religion".

God damn, as a lifelong agnostic, I HATE that term.

Here's why:

 https://saintjosephrcc.blogspot.com/2018/11/god-speaks-you-are-entering-winter-of.html

Not to mention the "Khristian Konservative" support for THIS crap:

https://saintjosephrcc.blogspot.com/2018/12/breaking-news-lower-assembly-of-french.html

You see, we are not a faith or religion and this was long before Orthodoxy recognized our right to exist within their pre-Roman traditions. Sometime just before or after World War I we were welcomed (without publicity) into Orthodoxy due to Romanist persecutions and excommunication of healers and miracle workers who were not priests.

Many of our female Apostles have been burned as witches or stoned to death. The last known killing was in 2004 in Kosovo. We ask for no trust and offer no "proof". Your opinions and faith do not matter to us. Jesus did not ask the blind man if he was Jewish.

We answer to no man or woman, no priest, bishop or pope. The Apostle has the authority of the path of Christ. Each Apostle has personal authority. We are companions of the man Jesus Christ, not worshippers.

Such a person was my Mother, fiercely independent in ACTION, but she claimed to worship - she was Roman Catholic and denied any other Church, but her roots go deep in the soil of Mary Magdalene and the other formally recognized Apostles - men like Peter, Paul and Mark (the women were not recognized but our history includes their Gospels).

We make mistakes.

An Apostle's home is dedicated to an Apostle's life and works - and are thus our temples, our universities, our living Bibles. Each sentence a Gospel, and each meal a "Mass" or "Service" or "Ceremony". We do not break bread in formal ceremony, but instead share water.

My personal communion and celebration at the table is not the bread or wine, but this; "I offer you water, may you never thirst." Our only shared belief is in eternal life. We do not believe in Sin, Evil, Death, "the Devil" or "God" - we believe in everything and every concept that leads to the truth and the Apostle's life. Words are sacred to us. We do not discuss certain things - and will not abide by certain laws.

Most of us are not law breakers - we simply do not do certain things that by law are required - like obtain a "license" to become married.

Every single moment of our walk of faith focusses on the life and experiences of adults setting good examples for others - especially children. Human life is not sacred to us - ALL life is sacred to us. We are not vegetarians - we kill and eat meat or not as we see fit.

Many Apostles are very wealthy, but we do not believe in the ownership of land or other real property. We are stewards - holding the land, the air - the water... for children not yet born. Albert Schweitzer and Gandhi were both (and are) apostles. It is not a choice - it is a physical change that occurs when a life of discipleship and ordinary kindness simply, changes. Miracles begin to occur. Simple - sometimes humorous, but undeniable as the sun or the rain. We can simply do them - although skepticism or fear can crush this gift for a moment. I can show you physical proof - but I do not seek to prove a damn thing.

My family home was dedicated to the work of Apostleship in 2001 by my own choice and the approval of my blessed Mother Bernice after the death of my father and her husband, Carl Hubertz. He was a respected Roman Catholic - but a man who did not speak of faith, but only of truth and obligation.

We do not preach.

In the modern world credentials, licenses and permission seem to matter, thus for example, I (John Hubertz) am a certified peer-advocate by the National Alliance of the Mentally Ill (NAMI), have advanced degrees from Miami of Ohio and the Karl Jung Institute and am an ordained minister.

The only thing I brag about is that I'm a Kentucky Colonel. I earned that without having to go to someone's "classes" or give money for the piece of paper.

We do not seek license for marriage, healing, teaching, or priesthood. Our authority springs from deeper roots. We do not ask for funding, but seek material donations of goods and services for direct use in our path of life.

Thus although began officially as an independent member agency of the Park Center Network - and originally worked with and in the facility on Lake avenue that helped John Hubertz when he was first diagnosed, the nationally renowned Fort Wayne Clubhouse community, that is merely the kind of silly thing that an Apostle needs these days to exist without persecution.

I do not like to be called a charlatan or a fool, although many would mock me, none seem to ever actually accomplish that. We are protected from that type of harm.


What is an Apostle?

First, we must volunteer when asked. The only price? A Martyr's death. When we die - we will have doubt and fear, but it will save someone else. That is the only difference between an Apostle/Saviour and an ordinary person. At first.

We do miracles, since we are Apostles, in real life. That's the proof - we perform miracles.

To us it is amazing, but so strange yet so constant we get used to it. There are a few of us, very few, that have Ka-Ba-Lah (the remembering). This means that the old "Christian" ways are not going to plague mankind much longer.

You see, suddenly, some are being called without faith at all - a joyful fulfillment of prophecy that is in the Bible. These sick stupid centuries of greed and hate and fear are coming to an end. Paradise - 10,000 years of it, has arrived.

In every form of "Bible" especially the Catholic bible and the Christian versions of it, the existence at all times of living apostles is mentioned. The "churches" ignore this. We do not pass plates for money or build buildings, we do not preach or ordain. We are Apostles. No money in it - and thus; not popular at all.

It is the only real "job" of all mankind. Everyone is called to discipleship (to be a kindly and peace-loving person) - and certain people are simply, chosen.

Those who say yes (many of us do not choose to ever speak of faith - it is part of our tradition ) but can cite physical evidence that we can recognize. Many of us do not even know the name of our faith. We do not write "bibles" - each life is a Gospel.

We formally object to all forms of licensure for any walk of life that includes healing, faith or family tradition. Persecution and martyrdom however, is not as evil as simply not being allowed to work as Apostles when called. Thus, many of us now are Doctors, Lawyers and Priests - but we do not ever cite that as authority.

Apostleship is the walk of the Christ - and we are called like all men and women to walk against the grain of even the law - thousands of us have died for our beliefs and our traditions and oral history reach back to three of the original Apostles. We do not bother with these details with those who are not called to join us.

The Apostle's walk that this represents began during the 200 years before the formation of the Catholic "Church" - thus we do not have central organization.

So - now the issues of error and intense human thought overwhelming the common sense of reality are gone. For it is central authority - even at the level of the infinite, that creates chaos and the hell of war.

This is the age of aquarius - when we all go back to the river of life, to the old thoughts and old ways.

But no chaos, no Armageddon, we have survived it.

"The fields are ready, the fire-pots burning. Help has arrived."

"The workers are able and the garden needs pruning."

"Work well and quickly, fear not waste - for if it burns, it was already dead."

Namaste,

This time, Christ is not A man or A woman, but a path, the path of the savior's sandals - even in high heels.

John Hubertz
Fort Wayne Indiana, USA

A challenge: Should we as Christians interact with deliberate monsters in our congregations? What justifies working in the Nuclear Bomb business?

The day the Carriage House Clubhouse tried to have me institutionalized. A story of a failed intervention.

This is a free verse description of what happened to me yesterday at a social service agency, and is a textbook example of failed intervention with a high-functioning mentally ill adult with hypomanic bipolar II disorder.

The patient you see, was myself.

The intervention was necessary, but the outcome and process was horrific.

John Hubertz with his deceased spouse, September 9, 2009.

Judy Died suddenly, in 2014.  She was 54 years of age (lung cancer).

Here is a tragic but very real example of intervention (necessary), but poorly executed.  

Context:  The Carriage House clubhouse loaned me a truck to move, and the brakes failed and I darn near had an accident.

Then, the real tragedy - what happened when I arrived for lunch, to report the truck problem.

Location:  Lake Avenue, Fort Wayne Clubhouse, Incorporated (A Park Center Agency).

Message by You: I can only tell you it is appropriate to thank you all, especially Max, Janell and Tom, for the time invested in my sanity/safety. I have a new CIT friend, and the blonde officer was so perceptive., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:21 PM

I can only tell you it is appropriate to thank you all, especially Max, Janell and Tom, for the time invested in my sanity/safety. I have a new CIT friend, and the blonde officer was so perceptive.

Message by You: I have officially sworn off california cigarettes - too potent for this old man., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:21 PM

I have officially sworn off california cigarettes - too potent for this old man.

Message by You: Peace, home safe - truck news and address tomorrow if I'm in town from work by darkness., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:21 PM

Peace, home safe - truck news and address tomorrow if I'm in town from work by darkness.

Message by You: Message from David Steury: John, tell Andy we know how to keep you safe and can contact him if we need to. My wife Margaret has his number - and thank you for allowing him to work during this necessary moment of change., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:22 PM

Message from David Steury: John, tell Andy we know how to keep you safe and can contact him if we need to. My wife Margaret has his number - and thank you for allowing him to work during this necessary moment of change.

Message by You: He is with friends - and I know him better than I think he knows himself., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:22 PM

He is with friends - and I know him better than I think he knows himself.

Message by You: (paraphrased of course), Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:22 PM

(paraphrased of course)

Thu 8:22 PM

Message by You: Good morning. In response to your appropriate and timely intervention, and since due to harvest I'm working (actually, mostly resting) today, I report the following. I anticipate seeing you at 7:15 to 7:30, as I want to assure you I am taking your appropriate fear for my well-being very seriously., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:32 AM

Good morning. In response to your appropriate and timely intervention, and since due to harvest I'm working (actually, mostly resting) today, I report the following. I anticipate seeing you at 7:15 to 7:30, as I want to assure you I am taking your appropriate fear for my well-being very seriously.

Message by You: 1. I am med compliant, and thanks to zyprexa I just got 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep. The time stamp on these texts will reflect that., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:32 AM

1. I am med compliant, and thanks to zyprexa I just got 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep. The time stamp on these texts will reflect that.

Message by You: 2. As our house is on a special watch list (due to our work with special needs people), officer Crock (2 years/clubhouse trained) and Policewoman Hughes (old friend of this house, 14 years on the force) just stopped in at my request. They reported to me this perception:, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:34 AM

2. As our house is on a special watch list (due to our work with special needs people), officer Crock (2 years/clubhouse trained) and Policewoman Hughes (old friend of this house, 14 years on the force) just stopped in at my request. They reported to me this perception:

Message by You: A. I am obviously under a bit of stress due to the move, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:34 AM

A. I am obviously under a bit of stress due to the move

Message by You: B. I appear healthy, and was obviously freshly showered and shaved, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:34 AM

B. I appear healthy, and was obviously freshly showered and shaved

Message by You: C. I seem stressed but not anxious, calm but not depressed. "You seem a little bit amped, but not too much" Officer Hughes has known me almost as long as you have, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:35 AM

C. I seem stressed but not anxious, calm but not depressed. "You seem a little bit amped, but not too much" Officer Hughes has known me almost as long as you have

Message by You: D. Cat is not dead yet, but Andy, the fact Max stole my phone without permission and promptly lost it is KILLING my safety and ability to work. I have NO PHONE thanks to the bungled intervention., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:35 AM

D. Cat is not dead yet, but Andy, the fact Max stole my phone without permission and promptly lost it is KILLING my safety and ability to work. I have NO PHONE thanks to the bungled intervention.

Message by You: As I cannot afford an immediate replacement, but can afford one in 8 days, do you have a general purpose clubhouse phone I might borrow?, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:36 AM

As I cannot afford an immediate replacement, but can afford one in 8 days, do you have a general purpose clubhouse phone I might borrow?

Message by You: Final item: Truck is being cared for by Mike, but he might get psychotic if you or other staffers enter the gated compound where he lives in his RV. I will be moving it out onto the front parking area when I get off work tonight at 9 PM., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:36 AM

Final item: Truck is being cared for by Mike, but he might get psychotic if you or other staffers enter the gated compound where he lives in his RV. I will be moving it out onto the front parking area when I get off work tonight at 9 PM.

Message by You: So - I'm happy, healthy and calm (by my standards). I followed your advice. I had a wellness check, and am now dressed and ready for work., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:37 AM

So - I'm happy, healthy and calm (by my standards). I followed your advice. I had a wellness check, and am now dressed and ready for work.

4:37 AM

Message by You: See you in two hours - but Andy, I'm not going to be OK with losing a $300 phone due to Max's inexperience and Tom Weir's lack of competence. Steal my property when you said "here, give it to me for a second,", is not a way to honor the four guarantees of respect and clubhouse membership. I request the courtesy of an immediate reply to the phone issue and the fact that a Moto G5 is a $200 item., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:38 AM

See you in two hours - but Andy, I'm not going to be OK with losing a $300 phone due to Max's inexperience and Tom Weir's lack of competence. Steal my property when you said "here, give it to me for a second,", is not a way to honor the four guarantees of respect and clubhouse membership. I request the courtesy of an immediate reply to the phone issue and the fact that a Moto G5 is a $200 item.

Message by You: I was however, preparing to replace it - you get me to the first of the month, and it won't cost you any more money than the few days of loaner phone time., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:39 AM

I was however, preparing to replace it - you get me to the first of the month, and it won't cost you any more money than the few days of loaner phone time.

Message by You: If not, it is going to degrade my clubhouse commitment and trust long term. How am I expected to ever again trust Tom Weir, since his interventions involve constant harassment, physical intimidation and deliberate evasion and lying?, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:40 AM

If not, it is going to degrade my clubhouse commitment and trust long term. How am I expected to ever again trust Tom Weir, since his interventions involve constant harassment, physical intimidation and deliberate evasion and lying?

Message by You: Why must I have been lied to when all I needed was assessment and perhaps hospitalization. Am I so physically intimidating you feared for your own safety?, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:40 AM

Why must I have been lied to when all I needed was assessment and perhaps hospitalization. Am I so physically intimidating you feared for your own safety?

Message by You: Not a well done intervention Andy, it was WAY off my perceptions of best practices in such a delicate moment., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:41 AM

Not a well done intervention Andy, it was WAY off my perceptions of best practices in such a delicate moment.

Message by You: I do have an area of behavior I wanted and needed advice on, but Tom was too busy trying to PUT ME IN JAIL., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:41 AM

I do have an area of behavior I wanted and needed advice on, but Tom was too busy trying to PUT ME IN JAIL.

4:41 AM

Message by You: Since I now have trust issues, let me know if I am barred or banned, as I need some advice - not an additional few weeks of incarceration. Had that intervention followed Tom's plan, I would be homeless perhaps for the rest of my life., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:43 AM

Since I now have trust issues, let me know if I am barred or banned, as I need some advice - not an additional few weeks of incarceration. Had that intervention followed Tom's plan, I would be homeless perhaps for the rest of my life.

4:43 AM

Message by You: For shame., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:43 AM

For shame.

4:43 AM

Message by You: At any rate, no harm, no foul. Andy, I'm blogging and writing a story about my near-death experiences and moving in the face of obvious mental issues and PTSD., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:25 AM

At any rate, no harm, no foul. Andy, I'm blogging and writing a story about my near-death experiences and moving in the face of obvious mental issues and PTSD.

Message by You: I would also suggest we convene a member group as a policy discussion on safe, sane and HUMANE practices. A weaker man might have died of phone-anxiety syndrome .... a newly named disorder., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:25 AM

I would also suggest we convene a member group as a policy discussion on safe, sane and HUMANE practices. A weaker man might have died of phone-anxiety syndrome .... a newly named disorder.

Message by You: But, I have found a Windows phone that works, unfortunately, I cannot afford to make it call any number but 911. See you in a few minutes sir., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:26 AM

But, I have found a Windows phone that works, unfortunately, I cannot afford to make it call any number but 911. See you in a few minutes sir.

5:26 AM

Message by You: So - would you give me the courtesy of a reply to these final questions. 1. Where is my phone, a critical element of my work with the three special needs people who still live here. 2. Do you not agree my experience should be documented, so that you don't accidently harm or make homeless the next member who just wanted help with some high risk behavioral issues (and by the way, I resisted the crisis center as Kerry Adam had me take a week off work just last week)., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:27 AM

So - would you give me the courtesy of a reply to these final questions. 1. Where is my phone, a critical element of my work with the three special needs people who still live here. 2. Do you not agree my experience should be documented, so that you don't accidently harm or make homeless the next member who just wanted help with some high risk behavioral issues (and by the way, I resisted the crisis center as Kerry Adam had me take a week off work just last week).

Message by You: No, I am not manic - but I am documenting a failed process. Thanks for your patience., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:28 AM

No, I am not manic - but I am documenting a failed process. Thanks for your patience.

Message by You: As a typist, i am always thought to be manic since I type like the wind when I'm working.... and I write about 2000 - 4000 words each morning upon waking up when I feel both calm, and in good spirits., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:28 AM

As a typist, i am always thought to be manic since I type like the wind when I'm working.... and I write about 2000 - 4000 words each morning upon waking up when I feel both calm, and in good spirits.

Message by You: My hypomania was cooled down a lot thanks to yesterday, so I promise, I'm not still angry, but I am still very upset at the loss of my property. Is this or is this not a sane response to what happened?, Friday, October 25 2019, 5:29 AM

My hypomania was cooled down a lot thanks to yesterday, so I promise, I'm not still angry, but I am still very upset at the loss of my property. Is this or is this not a sane response to what happened?