Thursday, October 31, 2019

OK OK - Yes, I'm a clinically insane Savant, and A Prophet from God - foretold in Prophecy (see "God Speaks" for link)


Thanks world - appreciate y'all allowing a simple country boy from a small indiana town, to "accidentally" found a new world unifying "religion".

God damn, as a lifelong agnostic, I HATE that term.

Here's why:

 https://saintjosephrcc.blogspot.com/2018/11/god-speaks-you-are-entering-winter-of.html

Not to mention the "Khristian Konservative" support for THIS crap:

https://saintjosephrcc.blogspot.com/2018/12/breaking-news-lower-assembly-of-french.html

You see, we are not a faith or religion and this was long before Orthodoxy recognized our right to exist within their pre-Roman traditions. Sometime just before or after World War I we were welcomed (without publicity) into Orthodoxy due to Romanist persecutions and excommunication of healers and miracle workers who were not priests.

Many of our female Apostles have been burned as witches or stoned to death. The last known killing was in 2004 in Kosovo. We ask for no trust and offer no "proof". Your opinions and faith do not matter to us. Jesus did not ask the blind man if he was Jewish.

We answer to no man or woman, no priest, bishop or pope. The Apostle has the authority of the path of Christ. Each Apostle has personal authority. We are companions of the man Jesus Christ, not worshippers.

Such a person was my Mother, fiercely independent in ACTION, but she claimed to worship - she was Roman Catholic and denied any other Church, but her roots go deep in the soil of Mary Magdalene and the other formally recognized Apostles - men like Peter, Paul and Mark (the women were not recognized but our history includes their Gospels).

We make mistakes.

An Apostle's home is dedicated to an Apostle's life and works - and are thus our temples, our universities, our living Bibles. Each sentence a Gospel, and each meal a "Mass" or "Service" or "Ceremony". We do not break bread in formal ceremony, but instead share water.

My personal communion and celebration at the table is not the bread or wine, but this; "I offer you water, may you never thirst." Our only shared belief is in eternal life. We do not believe in Sin, Evil, Death, "the Devil" or "God" - we believe in everything and every concept that leads to the truth and the Apostle's life. Words are sacred to us. We do not discuss certain things - and will not abide by certain laws.

Most of us are not law breakers - we simply do not do certain things that by law are required - like obtain a "license" to become married.

Every single moment of our walk of faith focusses on the life and experiences of adults setting good examples for others - especially children. Human life is not sacred to us - ALL life is sacred to us. We are not vegetarians - we kill and eat meat or not as we see fit.

Many Apostles are very wealthy, but we do not believe in the ownership of land or other real property. We are stewards - holding the land, the air - the water... for children not yet born. Albert Schweitzer and Gandhi were both (and are) apostles. It is not a choice - it is a physical change that occurs when a life of discipleship and ordinary kindness simply, changes. Miracles begin to occur. Simple - sometimes humorous, but undeniable as the sun or the rain. We can simply do them - although skepticism or fear can crush this gift for a moment. I can show you physical proof - but I do not seek to prove a damn thing.

My family home was dedicated to the work of Apostleship in 2001 by my own choice and the approval of my blessed Mother Bernice after the death of my father and her husband, Carl Hubertz. He was a respected Roman Catholic - but a man who did not speak of faith, but only of truth and obligation.

We do not preach.

In the modern world credentials, licenses and permission seem to matter, thus for example, I (John Hubertz) am a certified peer-advocate by the National Alliance of the Mentally Ill (NAMI), have advanced degrees from Miami of Ohio and the Karl Jung Institute and am an ordained minister.

The only thing I brag about is that I'm a Kentucky Colonel. I earned that without having to go to someone's "classes" or give money for the piece of paper.

We do not seek license for marriage, healing, teaching, or priesthood. Our authority springs from deeper roots. We do not ask for funding, but seek material donations of goods and services for direct use in our path of life.

Thus although began officially as an independent member agency of the Park Center Network - and originally worked with and in the facility on Lake avenue that helped John Hubertz when he was first diagnosed, the nationally renowned Fort Wayne Clubhouse community, that is merely the kind of silly thing that an Apostle needs these days to exist without persecution.

I do not like to be called a charlatan or a fool, although many would mock me, none seem to ever actually accomplish that. We are protected from that type of harm.


What is an Apostle?

First, we must volunteer when asked. The only price? A Martyr's death. When we die - we will have doubt and fear, but it will save someone else. That is the only difference between an Apostle/Saviour and an ordinary person. At first.

We do miracles, since we are Apostles, in real life. That's the proof - we perform miracles.

To us it is amazing, but so strange yet so constant we get used to it. There are a few of us, very few, that have Ka-Ba-Lah (the remembering). This means that the old "Christian" ways are not going to plague mankind much longer.

You see, suddenly, some are being called without faith at all - a joyful fulfillment of prophecy that is in the Bible. These sick stupid centuries of greed and hate and fear are coming to an end. Paradise - 10,000 years of it, has arrived.

In every form of "Bible" especially the Catholic bible and the Christian versions of it, the existence at all times of living apostles is mentioned. The "churches" ignore this. We do not pass plates for money or build buildings, we do not preach or ordain. We are Apostles. No money in it - and thus; not popular at all.

It is the only real "job" of all mankind. Everyone is called to discipleship (to be a kindly and peace-loving person) - and certain people are simply, chosen.

Those who say yes (many of us do not choose to ever speak of faith - it is part of our tradition ) but can cite physical evidence that we can recognize. Many of us do not even know the name of our faith. We do not write "bibles" - each life is a Gospel.

We formally object to all forms of licensure for any walk of life that includes healing, faith or family tradition. Persecution and martyrdom however, is not as evil as simply not being allowed to work as Apostles when called. Thus, many of us now are Doctors, Lawyers and Priests - but we do not ever cite that as authority.

Apostleship is the walk of the Christ - and we are called like all men and women to walk against the grain of even the law - thousands of us have died for our beliefs and our traditions and oral history reach back to three of the original Apostles. We do not bother with these details with those who are not called to join us.

The Apostle's walk that this represents began during the 200 years before the formation of the Catholic "Church" - thus we do not have central organization.

So - now the issues of error and intense human thought overwhelming the common sense of reality are gone. For it is central authority - even at the level of the infinite, that creates chaos and the hell of war.

This is the age of aquarius - when we all go back to the river of life, to the old thoughts and old ways.

But no chaos, no Armageddon, we have survived it.

"The fields are ready, the fire-pots burning. Help has arrived."

"The workers are able and the garden needs pruning."

"Work well and quickly, fear not waste - for if it burns, it was already dead."

Namaste,

This time, Christ is not A man or A woman, but a path, the path of the savior's sandals - even in high heels.

John Hubertz
Fort Wayne Indiana, USA

Friday, October 25, 2019

The day the Carriage House Clubhouse tried to have me institutionalized. A story of a failed intervention.

Message by You: I can only tell you it is appropriate to thank you all, especially Max, Janell and Tom, for the time invested in my sanity/safety. I have a new CIT friend, and the blonde officer was so perceptive., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:21 PM
Message by You: I have officially sworn off california cigarettes - too potent for this old man., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:21 PM
Message by You: Peace, home safe - truck news and address tomorrow if I'm in town from work by darkness., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:21 PM
Message by You: Message from David Steury: John, tell Andy we know how to keep you safe and can contact him if we need to. My wife Margaret has his number - and thank you for allowing him to work during this necessary moment of change., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:22 PM
Message by You: He is with friends - and I know him better than I think he knows himself., Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:22 PM
Message by You: (paraphrased of course), Thursday, October 24 2019, 8:22 PM
Message by You: Good morning. In response to your appropriate and timely intervention, and since due to harvest I'm working (actually, mostly resting) today, I report the following. I anticipate seeing you at 7:15 to 7:30, as I want to assure you I am taking your appropriate fear for my well-being very seriously., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:32 AM
Message by You: 1. I am med compliant, and thanks to zyprexa I just got 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep. The time stamp on these texts will reflect that., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:32 AM
Message by You: 2. As our house is on a special watch list (due to our work with special needs people), officer Crock (2 years/clubhouse trained) and Policewoman Hughes (old friend of this house, 14 years on the force) just stopped in at my request. They reported to me this perception:, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:34 AM
Message by You: A. I am obviously under a bit of stress due to the move, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:34 AM
Message by You: B. I appear healthy, and was obviously freshly showered and shaved, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:34 AM
Message by You: C. I seem stressed but not anxious, calm but not depressed. "You seem a little bit amped, but not too much" Officer Hughes has known me almost as long as you have, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:35 AM
Message by You: D. Cat is not dead yet, but Andy, the fact Max stole my phone without permission and promptly lost it is KILLING my safety and ability to work. I have NO PHONE thanks to the bungled intervention., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:35 AM
Message by You: As I cannot afford an immediate replacement, but can afford one in 8 days, do you have a general purpose clubhouse phone I might borrow?, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:36 AM
Message by You: Final item: Truck is being cared for by Mike, but he might get psychotic if you or other staffers enter the gated compound where he lives in his RV. I will be moving it out onto the front parking area when I get off work tonight at 9 PM., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:36 AM
Message by You: So - I'm happy, healthy and calm (by my standards). I followed your advice. I had a wellness check, and am now dressed and ready for work., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:37 AM
Message by You: See you in two hours - but Andy, I'm not going to be OK with losing a $300 phone due to Max's inexperience and Tom Weir's lack of competence. Steal my property when you said "here, give it to me for a second,", is not a way to honor the four guarantees of respect and clubhouse membership. I request the courtesy of an immediate reply to the phone issue and the fact that a Moto G5 is a $200 item., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:38 AM
Message by You: I was however, preparing to replace it - you get me to the first of the month, and it won't cost you any more money than the few days of loaner phone time., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:39 AM
Message by You: If not, it is going to degrade my clubhouse commitment and trust long term. How am I expected to ever again trust Tom Weir, since his interventions involve constant harassment, physical intimidation and deliberate evasion and lying?, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:40 AM
Message by You: Why must I have been lied to when all I needed was assessment and perhaps hospitalization. Am I so physically intimidating you feared for your own safety?, Friday, October 25 2019, 4:40 AM
Message by You: Not a well done intervention Andy, it was WAY off my perceptions of best practices in such a delicate moment., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:41 AM
Message by You: I do have an area of behavior I wanted and needed advice on, but Tom was too busy trying to PUT ME IN JAIL., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:41 AM
Message by You: Since I now have trust issues, let me know if I am barred or banned, as I need some advice - not an additional few weeks of incarceration. Had that intervention followed Tom's plan, I would be homeless perhaps for the rest of my life., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:43 AM
Message by You: For shame., Friday, October 25 2019, 4:43 AM
Message by You: At any rate, no harm, no foul. Andy, I'm blogging and writing a story about my near-death experiences and moving in the face of obvious mental issues and PTSD., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:25 AM
Message by You: I would also suggest we convene a member group as a policy discussion on safe, sane and HUMANE practices. A weaker man might have died of phone-anxiety syndrome .... a newly named disorder., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:25 AM
Message by You: But, I have found a Windows phone that works, unfortunately, I cannot afford to make it call any number but 911. See you in a few minutes sir., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:26 AM
Message by You: So - would you give me the courtesy of a reply to these final questions. 1. Where is my phone, a critical element of my work with the three special needs people who still live here. 2. Do you not agree my experience should be documented, so that you don't accidently harm or make homeless the next member who just wanted help with some high risk behavioral issues (and by the way, I resisted the crisis center as Kerry Adam had me take a week off work just last week)., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:27 AM
Message by You: No, I am not manic - but I am documenting a failed process. Thanks for your patience., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:28 AM
Message by You: As a typist, i am always thought to be manic since I type like the wind when I'm working.... and I write about 2000 - 4000 words each morning upon waking up when I feel both calm, and in good spirits., Friday, October 25 2019, 5:28 AM
Message by You: My hypomania was cooled down a lot thanks to yesterday, so I promise, I'm not still angry, but I am still very upset at the loss of my property. Is this or is this not a sane response to what happened?, Friday, October 25 2019, 5:29 AM